A Series Of Unfortunate Events

I couldn’t believe how bad today turned out. First thing in the morning, before my day had really even started, I almost hit someone at school. I took the car today, and they stepped right up to the edge of the sidewalk like they were going to go, so I stopped quickly because I was worried they were going to step out in front of me, but he stayed stopped so I went, but right as I went he went, so it was just awkward. Ugh. I hate pedestrians. I hate being a pedestrian too, for the same reason.

I was late to class because we’d gotten out of the house so late.

Today was multiple choice Tuesday in math, so my shoulder buddy and I had to stand up and explain how to solve the problem we were presented. The people before us had gone, and my shoulder buddy was acting like it was our turn to go, and no one was saying anything, so I stood up like I was ready to go. My teacher was like, NO NO NO! so I was stuck standing there awkwardly while he freaked out. I sat down, but was slightly embarrassed. Eventually we went, and that was fine. A few groups later, someone tripped and used my desk to catch themselves. Which only strengthened my belief that I had a bad aura around me today. I could almost feel it, pushing at me from behind. It’s a weird thing to explain. I saw it as a sickly yellow though.

On my way to college after second period, a really mangy coyote ran out in front of me. Not even a block away from school. I slammed on my breaks, seeing in an instant myself hitting and killing it, and it’s poor lifeless body lying in the middle of the road. Thankfully I didn’t actually hit it, and it got to the other side of the road. It stood there and watched me while I almost had a panic attack in the car. I sat there for what felt like forever but what was probably 30 seconds, looking back at it, and then it left, and a car pulled up behind me, so I continued down the road. I almost considered going home. I wanted to just lie in bed and cry. I felt so bad. If I’d’ve hit it, I would’ve gone home.

I made it to college without any other incidents, but I was really on edge the whole ride over. I watched the edges of the road very closely to make sure nothing was going to jump out at me, and I almost swerved into the other lane when I spaced out for a fraction of a second and then saw a woman walking her dog. Everything was fine for the most part though. I got to college and parked and just sat in the car for a moment, needing a moment to myself. Then I went to the cafeteria, sat down with a girl I used to be “friends” with (I hung out with her group, but I was never really a part of it, during freshman year) and ate my lunch. I hung my overcoat on the back of my chair. My friend had to leave, but R from pottery (the guy I sit next to) was a few tables away, so I just got up and went and sat with him. I still had about… 40 minutes, if not more, before my class started, so I just sat and read 1984 and texted Amber. Finally the time came to go to class, when I realized I didn’t have my overcoat. I was like, seriously, I’m going to have lost ANOTHER thing. I was super irritated with myself. Then I remembered where I’d left it and went to check. It was still there thankfully.

I went to Botany, then realized I was supposed to print out the bibliography for the experiment we’re doing. Which I only had two links for because I forgot to finish it last night. I was really ready to be done with my day at this point. Class slowly went on and I tried to take as many notes as possible since I don’t have a book to use any more. Finally class ended and I went to Pottery. Which was actually fun. Most if not all of the class was spent looking for “that’s what she said” jokes. We actually found a lot. And they were funny too. While we were joking around I was working on my 3^rd project. I’m making a fish-cup thing. Basically it’s going to be this enormus cup, except it’ll have a lid on it. And be impossible to clean because it’s ridiculously difficult to get your hand inside anymore. That’s what she said. Anyway, I’m excited to be doing that, but I’m behind on my other projects some how. I hate how much stuff we have to do. I’ve done everything, but it’s all disappeared. Ugh.

I came straight home after class and then took an hour nap. Today was horrible and I’m glad it’s over.

Grades, Repeating Numbers, And Dreams

I tried writing this earlier, but my family seemed determined not to let me. I wanted to be done with this and asleep about two hours ago, but they wanted to stay up and watch The Office and my sister wouldn’t leave me alone so yeah. And I’m really tired. Last night was one of the least restful nights I’ve ever had. I woke up almost every hour, and around 4 I had a dream that I was shot in the head. I’ve never been shot or killed in any dream I can remember. The blast from my dream seemed to carry over into reality and jolted my head over to the side so that I probably looked like one of those guys who was sick and getting their butts kicked by a cough medicine or something. All I can remember from the dream was that I was doing something on a table or something and someone who I thought was a friend had just gotten up and walked behind me, and then walked back over carrying a double barreled shotgun. They pointed it right at my eyes and then pulled the trigger, which resulted in me turning my head away so fast that I woke myself up. I remember being half asleep but still seeing down the end of the gun’s barrel. It was really bizarre.

Aside from my sleepless night, today wasn’t too horrible. It was the first day of the new semester/quarter in high school. Only 89 more days to go until summer! Math was pretty boring. C decided that she would rather do a college class and finish early then just stick out the rest of the year, so I’m pretty much in their alone. Well, M is in there, but I don’t really talk to her. I should though. She’s one of those really sweet girls that you notice but don’t really remember. I actually do really like her. We get along well, but I don’t think we’d ever really be friends. Maybe that should be my goal this quarter. Make friends with M. She’s been in at least one of my classes every year since the beginning of middle school I think. She was in my Spanish class last year, and I feel like I had her in something freshman year but can’t remember… hmmm.

US history sucked. It’s 11:11 right now. I’ve seen 5:55, 333, and 11:11 today. Anyway, my history teacher (the original, not Ms M, who’s last day was Friday ) assigned a massive project thing that has multiple due dates because it’s got so much in it. Basically we’re going to teach ourselves this quarter. Which I hate. If I wanted to learn from a text book or the internet, I wouldn’t come to school. I find it extremely annoying when teachers decide that it would be “fun” to assign projects that require no class time. I can and will do this entire project at home. Ugh.

Botany was refreshing. I was worried I’d been failing, but the instructor handed a lot of stuff back today and I did pretty well on everything. I only missed one or two points on the labs, got an extra credit point for writing about the sustainability of bamboo, and got 10/10 on my presentation. And, most importantly, I got a 93% on the exam we had last week. And she said that the way the class grades are looking, there’s about half the class who got above 90% on the test, and the other half got below 60%. The girl who sits in front of me, A, didn’t do so well on the exam. I was surprised because she’d done so well on the quiz. I was really happy though. I usually don’t get good grades like that. It was kind of refreshing. Also, we started our experiment today. CRAP! I just remembered that I was supposed to come up with a bibliography for the research we did (I did) on to make the experiment to begin with. Ugh. I’ll just print it out before class tomorrow. I’m driving so it shouldn’t be a problem.

Ok, I’m going to bed now. Hopefully I won’t get shot.

First Outdoor Time Of The Year

I’m kind of in shock right now. I just went to my stats page and saw that I’d received over 3,800 hits this month. That’s 925 views a week. I was completely shocked when I saw it. And I figured I’d write about it now because there’s virtually no way I’m going to get 200 views tomorrow. The most views I’ve ever gotten is 166, sometime this month. I’m excited though. I mean, considering all I do is write about an absolutely pointless topic, I’m glad to know that people care enough to come back and read it every day. Maybe a little scared as well. How much of a psychopath do you have to be to actually enjoy the craziness that is my brain, that’s what I want to know.

Anyway, today was pretty decent on weather-wise so my mom and I did a bit of yard work. We didn’t really get that much done, considering the lawn that’s started growing all over the hillside, but it was nice to be out there again. I hate grass. I’ve said it before, but I really do not like grass. Unless it’s the only plant for miles around, I don’t like it. I enjoy it when it’s in prairie form, but lawns are pointless and require too much maintenance and water. I’ve ranted about this before. Anyway. The crocuses are coming up already, which is exciting. My mom decided (after I asked her about a bazillion times when we should start planting things) to buy an almanac (a calendar for farmers which has the dates of when to plant certain things, the temperatures and weathers of the months, etc). I’m looking forward to getting one. I’d really like to tear up the lawn and start a little farm. I love the terraced hillside, but it’s not designed for farming purposes. If we just tore up the lawn, which isn’t even really a lawn because the soil is so sandy and crappy that even the grass can’t handle it, and mulched the upturned dirt and encouraged worms to live there, the lawn could be really productive. I’d want to plant corn, pumpkins, and… something else. Maybe watermelon.  I think the watermelon will go up on the rockery though, because it’ll be easier to maintain up there.

It was the perfect temperature outside today though because it was just warm enough to be comfortable, but still cool enough that the bees weren’t out and bothersome. We cleaned up most of their area first, and then moved on. They did come out for a few mintues at one point, but the sun hid behind the clouds again and then they were done. It was still nice out though. I’m excited for spring!

After we were done outside the cable guy came and installed a line into my sister’s room, so she can watch tv now too. My aunt randomly came over (the one that hardly ever gets mentioned because we only see each other during holidays and birthdays) and she and my mom went out to get their eyebrows waxed. Then my mom went to get my sister from my dads and that was that.

Apparently I’ve got a “surprise” coming, but I don’t have a clue what it might be. I’m going to bug my sister like crazy though, because she told me I had a surprise but then wouldn’t give me any further information. Whenever someone does that they’re just trying to get a reaction and drive you nuts. So I will be badgering my sister until she tells me, because it’s exactly what she asked for when she told me without really telling me anything. Also, my dad has invited my sister and I to go to Hawaii with him and his girlfriend and her family sometime this year. I’m not really interested in going. I love Hawaii, but I don’t really want to be stuck on an island with my dad’s girlfriend’s family. Or my dad really.  Also, he’s never taken us before, so I’m not really inclined to go just because he wants to spoil his girlfriend. He also is thinking of taking my sister and I (and probably his girlfriend as well) on a cruise next January. Again, not inclined to go. I don’t really care for cruises, even though I’ve never been on one, but I’m not really interested in being stuck on a boat with a billion other people and my sister and my dad. Staying home sounds much more interesting. Plus, it’s my senior year next year. I can’t just up and leave right in the middle of college.

Aside from all of that, I pretty much sat around and watched The Office today. Pam and Jim are FINALLY dating. I just started season 4. I picked up a scarf I started knitting over a year ago because I feel really unproductive when I watch TV. I always need to be doing something else, and knitting is something easy.

Anyway, good night!

A Fishy Personal Day

Today was mostly a self-indulgence day. I know I work really hard during the week and never do anything selfish (that was all sarcastic) but everyone needs some “me” time every once in a while, right? R and I made plans earlier in the week to go out to a mall today, so she came and got me at 1:30. I watched The Office and ate cereal until she got here. Then we went to the mall and got starbucks, and walked around for two hours. I went into a Dolce and Gabbana outlet, a Prada outlet, as well as a Victoria secret today. I was really proud of myself. I’m not longer such a disgrace to gays everywhere, having entered establishments of such high fashion. It was kind of funny really. I told R “If I had a vagina I would have NO money. I would buy every fashionable thing. Purses and jackets and jeans and shoes would fill entire rooms of my house.” We promptly left the Dolce and Gabbana outlet, lol.

We mostly did a lot of window shopping, which was fun, but for whatever reason we decided to go to petsmart, which was not the best decision. I’ve been wanting a bigger tank for a while now, just because a half gallon is way too small for a pair of 3 inch goldfish. I’ve also really wanted a beta fish for a while, so when we saw the stand full of beta’s we had to stop and look. My older/favorite cousin A’s friend N works at petsmart, so she pretty much stood and talked with us the entire time we were there. R found two fish that were yellow that she liked, but who weren’t too interested in her. I looked at several fish, but found one that kind of stood out to me. I verbally asked it if it wanted to come home, and it turned away from me, so I put it back. I picked up a few more and found one that I liked, and asked this one as well. He got really excited and kept looking at me, which was an obvious yes, so I had to buy him. Plus, before I even asked him he was miraculously given the name Roy, due to an odd series of misinterpreted words between R and me. And he was only $2 because they were having a sale. So, basically I was leaving with him no matter what.

I only had $28 dollars in my pocket, but I really wanted to look at the tanks because my goldfish really needed a larger one. Those were all on sale too, and N helped me find the perfect one. After about 15 minutes of debating whether I should even get one, she found me a 10 gallon tank that came with a filter and a lid with lights for only $25. I had to get it. Of course, going from half a gallon to 10 gallons is a big difference, and considering my mom has been against me getting a larger tank for a while, I was really on the fence about it. I stood at the cash register debating whether I should get it with R and N for about 20 minutes before I finally just said screw it and bought it. Due to tax I was $3 short, but R covered me. The sales saved me $17 dollars exactly. She then drove me home and she and my mom and I talked for about half an hour before she went home. We’re thinking about going to some public gardens tomorrow, but I don’t know where or what kind. We’ll see.

R and I also decided that we would go to the U-district in Seattle on my birthday for lunch and to check out the greenhouses. She screamed when she had the idea she was so excited. My friends are weird…

Here’s a picture of my fishies.

 

The goldfish with the long tails name (the male/on the left) is Jacques. I haven’t really named the female (shorter tail/ on the right) yet, I don’t think, but the two of them are definitely a couple. I wouldn’t know what to do if one of them died. I call them my Yin and Yang fish. They will swim in circles around each other sometimes, and never stray farther than a few inches from one another. The female is usually towing after the male, who will swim in front of her and hide her from view occasionally. It was kind of funny/ odd, but I put them in there and they were both really active, and then all of the sudden the female freaked out and started jetting all over the place like a crazy women. She stopped as suddenly as she started and then both fish just pulled in all their fins and dropped to the bottom of the tank. The filter causes the water to move around in a slow circle, so when the both hit the bottom they slowly began to spin. It kind of made me laugh. But it also freaked me out because I didn’t wait for the chlorine to leave the water before I put them in there, so I was worried that they’d gotten a large amount of it built up somewhere in their body or something. I’ve put them in tap water before without such dramatic results before though, so I think it might be just the large amount of space. They barely had room to turn around before, which explains them dropping like stones randomly.

You can’t hardly see Roy on the far left but he’s there in the blue water. He’s an average sized beta with a deep blue color and fins that change from blue to red depending on how he moves them. I feel like he’s the exact way you’d think a beta should look. He’s pretty active, but I think that’s mostly to do with the fact that there’s two large gold fish right next to him. Whenever he’s not moving though he’s just lying there watching me. Kind of interesting.

Size Matters

Today was actually really nice. I had a lab report/plan thing due today, which I didn’t want to bother with last night, so I set my alarm clock for 6:45. After hitting the snooze, the nap button, and then sleeping in an extra half hour accidentally, I finally got up at 7:40. woops. Thankfully I got ready quickly, and managed to BS a pretty decent lab proposal for my group. I didn’t leave the house until after 10 (my mom left me the car today), but not before realizing I’d left my textbook at school yesterday. I knew exactly where I’d left it. I took it out just before the exam to flip through the pages, and then when the exam started I put it on the floor instead of in my bag. This resulted in the book being left behind at the end of class. I asked my teacher about it today but she said she hadn’t heard anything.

Botany was really fun today though. We had a lab, which tested the stem of a madrona tree to see how much water is moved up through the leaves. This involved a long floppy tube, a thick brown stick that needed to be forced into the tube, the discussion of how the bigger sticks would be better because they would make a stronger seal for the water, as well as head and, yes, Vaseline. The two hours were basically one big “that’s what she said” moment. It was hilarious. My group is definitely the best in the class. We’re loud and always laughing. Most about sex stuff, but there you have it. The girl in my group and I had kind of a private conversation about why size mattered and after we agreed that it did we gave each other a high five. Hahahaha. She’s one of the weirdest people I’ve ever met, but she makes me laugh so much. My day would be so boring without her, I can’t even imagine.

After that I had pottery, which was somewhat fun, but no where near the awesomeness levels in Botany. I think I’ve kind of maybe possibly finished three projects but the first three mini pieces are all still disappeared. I’m irritated. I just want to turn them in and get credit for them and be done. Ugh. I stayed a little late today because I got really into working on the third project. It’s a 3D assignment, so you basically build whatever hollow thing you want. I made a pinch pot and have started adding coils to it. I don’t know what it will be, but I enjoyed making the stuff I’ve got at the moment. M stayed after with me and then gave me a ride to my car because it was so way far out in the boonies. I’m always surprised when people actually seem to like me and are nice to me. I wouldn’t be nice to me lol. I’m annoying as hell. I had a weird feeling that I’d be a bad omen to her before we left class, right after she tripped after helping me clean up. This feeling was proven when she left the parking garage and hit the curb and popped off her hub cap. We pulled over and walked back to get it. It was pretty funny.

I love college. The classes may be a bit more difficult, but the people are so much better. I’ve already decided that if I fail this quarter of college classes, I’m dropping out of high school and will get a job and pay for my own classes. I’m not going back to high school. I will kill the people in it if I do. On that murderous note, I’m off to bed. I’m tired after watching four hours of The Office. I love that show so much. It’s hilarious.

Cutie Of The Day

Look who I found!

Isn’t he gorgeous?! His name is Robert Sheehan. You’re welcome.